My Dear Reyyan,
Currently sitting in a parking lot n typing away to you even though i have no wifi, just missing you loads, my girl w her pretty eyes. Js gonna pour my heart out w sincerity. So when we were talking and I lashed out, I was at my guiltiest when you went from caps to lowercase, felt like I scratched your heart the way ur reaction went so low. But when you told me about you crying? I felt even worse and guiltier. All I said was “awh” and i’m very sorry wallah, internally my heart ached for yours and I should’ve held that moment with more care. You needed my love n babying and understanding, not some guilt reaction. And during our argument, I said something I should never have, something that doesn’t reflect how I see you or know you, my reyyan. I’m very sorry once again for associating you with that shit, I never meant it and I never would. I know how soft n loyal your heart is, and there ain’t a soul who’d ever love me the way you do, with all your softness n care, and there isn’t anyone who’d love you the way I do. All your feelings and emotions show me how much I mean to you, and I appreciate it much more than I show it. You said that you don’t ever wanna tell me when you cry, because it feels like I don’t care, and it made me feel so khara because I do care, more than anything I’ve ever cared for all my life. I’ve failed to show you that at times, and I apologize from the bottom of my heart, because you and your heart matter to me, the most wallah. I’m sorry for making you overshare, because that’d never be true, wallah. I want all of you, and i’m here for all of you, no matter what. I’m not js gonna keep it at words, my baby deserves her man who learns, you deserve my consistency, and that’s what I’ll put into action. You said you felt like beberey asleep in the forest, who runs up to me once awake to hug n kiss me. And that’s how I want you to feel w me wallah, safe and warm and protected, right at home in my arms. Us against the universe after all, and I wanna make it up to my little girl. And that's the least I could for you wallah. I'm sorry for everything, and I hope you can forgive me. I love you so much wallah billah, and no matter what, I always will. My heart is yours, and you’ll always be my most precious ni3mah, cared and loved for for eternity.
